i've never felt so lose before. everything thing just sucks. just when i found some things precious to me, just when i thought i could change to make everyone happy again, but i cant. i'm just a bitch. EVERYTHING I PUT IN SO MUCH EFFORT FOR JUST CRUMBLED TO DUST. I WAS TIRED. I AM TIRED. BUT WHAT CAN I DO? I WILL JUST FAIL ALL OVER AGAIN. love hurts, to love someone hurts, to love your friends hurts, to love your family hurts, to love a passion hurts. everything just hurts, i cant accomplish anything. all i have left is a pain in my heart, a old wound reopen-ed and worsen, a dream that is forever just a dream. empty, empty. i hate it, i hate having so much to love, and yet getting nothing in return. i can do well in anything. everytime i will just fail. every effort will go down the drain. crying crying but it doesnt help. i dont want another heartbreak, for this time i feel like i will break.

and ash new chereo song just have to fit perfectly into the situation im in now. what a sad coincidence.