So "SHOWBIZ" is actually just a name to cover up a career "selling body for fame" ?
See all the artistes and singers shining on stage,
we'll always be attracted to their beauty, their singing, their dance.. etc.
The showbiz aka entertainment industry is like a fantasy to me.
BUT. I heard that it's actually not such a good place to be in.
The dark truth inside the industry is actually too corrupted and all.
What a sad sad reality for me to take.
The dream i always chased after is so dark and thorny.
But. Even if it's no different from hell.
I will still aim for it. It's still my fantasy.
As to be able to perform on stage, is just like reaching heaven.
No matter how corrupted it is. It's my only happiness.
Even if it's a teeny weeny chance of success,
as there's this saying ,
"Even if forced to stand on the edge of despair,
I'll grab tightly onto the chance thin as spider thread.
We humans have a strong spirit,
though whether to grab hold of it or not depends on the person itself.
To mop around and sign, what does that really do?
even the dead stand still and not more.
But I'm alive, I'm standing on my own strength."
Haha.

ANYWAY I FUCKING IN LOVE WITH KEYYYY [KIM KI BUN] OF SHINEE NOW.
AHHHHH HE'S SO FUCKING CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
I JUST WANNA FLY TO KOREA NOW TO HUG HIM MANNNNZ.
AND HE'S ONLY 18!!! SO DAM DAM DAM DAM CUTE.
MY NEW LOVE ONLY!!!!!!!