AHHHHHH I'M SO GAINING WEIGHT NOW.
I'M GETTING SO FATFATFATFAT BY EATING SO MANY MEALS ADAY!!! MUST CUT DOWN ALR IF NOT I'M GONNA BECOME A PLUMP LADY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ytd dear came over to ton. HAHAH it's super funny to see dear play around with my FAMILY. LOL. Heartwarming manzxzxz! Love my LOW! andandand! i am so attracted to silky terriers and yorkshire now! BABY, BUY ONE FOR MEEEEE!

anyway hope you 2 will start talking to each other again soon, like how you two were in the past. it will be happier that way manz.

It's scary afterall, the world outside the dance studio.
Suffocating craps. I totally hate the common topic : Study.
And twofaced people really suck-dickedly sucks.

The only place I feel happy and free of evil thoughts is when I'm practicing dance.
Seriously I really wish I don't need to leave the dance studio to face the harsh realitys.

I've turned to a last resort.
If doing these still can't change anything.
Then there really isn't any point anymore.
I'm a bitch, yeah. And you can't stand me. So why continue it?
I love you. So? Why must I continue on something that will keep pushing myself to a corner.
Love is not a reason to put up with everything.
Love is Love. But Love is not tolerating.
Tolerance and stubborn endurance will only cause never ending misery.

Well first yesterday went for Ash's lesson.
Beginner and intermediate jiu shi bu yi yang.
Beginner are all about skills.... skills... skills. KILLER! LOL
And intermediate is putting the skills into action.
Woot! FUN IS THE ONLY WORD FOR DANCE! HAHAHAAAAA.
It's been long since I went for dance lesson and yesterday felt extremely refreshing and hyper.
I Love Dance!

I guess I'll stop waiting for the day someone would understand.
I should be glad my brain understands it.
Lol. I guess i'll stop talking about it anymore.
It's saddening enough to be left un-understooded.
But it's even worse to be stabbed with their remarks.
Hah.


I love my dearest cx.

I have a wonderful family.
I have good friends.
I have good working brains that can study if I want to.
And that's what people considered "Lucky"
But why am I still unhappy?
Simple, because it's not the kind of happiness I wants.
Understand? Well I guess no one does. Laugh.

I wonder when was the last time i watched a movie. Lol.
-.-
dammmmmm. Everyone are suckers.
Please get a life laaaaaaaa!
Tired of the mundane life. Everyday come and pass so boring-ly now.
I wonder when was the last time i went out for a walk at the mall or something.
Zzzz. And theres no dance, making is worse. Shit.zzzz

Well I really want to apologise. But I don't know how to. I feel like the stucked up one. Afterall I'm the only one that still hasn't admit to my own mistakes. Yes, i can feel the Guilt and Shame on myself.

Just hearing music makes me wanna dance dance dance dance,
to let my hair flutter flutter flutter in the air.
As if ate some estacy,
my body shivers with excitement to stop myself my jumping up and dance.
2Ne1 is hot. Esp CL's dance.
Wouldn't it be wow-o-wow if I could dance like them!

I'm having problems. Too many problems.
I don't want a listening ear. Because it's hard to understand me.
I just wish everyone would stop thinking i'm a oh-so-lucky girl, i want to be pitied.
And after being pitied I wish i would get a warm warm hug.
):

P.S. : I'm not referring to you when i said problems!

You didn't really treated me that well as you thought you did.
But I can only blame myself for loving you. ):
I really want to laugh. I feel more like the 3rd party. And she's more like your girlf. Hahah.
What a irony.

I guess I shall made a private blog. Or keep a diary. Laugh.
Everything is so sad, but I didn't really want to say it out.
Because I doubt anyone would understand.

Did I did the wrong thing?
Maybe I should've just let her block him forever.
Ah, well. This is punishment I guess.
Maybe I should start preparing for the worse now.
In case history repeats itself.

Life is stressful. Everything always don't turn out right. Laugh.
Humans always lies. Sometimes I really don't know who is lying and who is not.
And the way the heart changes so quickly is also amazing.
Impressive, but.... saddening. It only makes it hard to trust people.
And sometimes people can't understand me and it only made me felt like
I'm talking alien language. Hahah.
My parents don't understand, my friends don't understand.... lucky at least Yanru understands.

Sometimes I really don't know how to move on.
When people don't get my meaning it really hurts alot.
I wished I would get treated better. Sincerely I wish.
And I cry.

Hmmm, as expected she and her army of dogs spammed to reply the tags.
LOL. Actually if it was the me yesterday, I may be angry and kpkb back.
And there will no end to it.
But, forget it.
I guess I have other things to worry about.
Instead of spending my time looking at her blog.
I decided I don't wanna care about she and her lame things anymore.
I got my other things to worry about.
She's just a childish kid. Not worth my attention lor.
I was a stupid idiot to followed along her childishness before.
But I guess it's okay laa, all in all, she still amused me.
Laugh Out Loud.
But, Jenny does things at her pace. And I've decided to lose interest in her.
So, happy rebutt-ing. Happy looking like a fool. And sorry to say, all along she was just like a entertaining toy for me. Laughhhhhhhh only. Hahahahaha. Bye retard. :D

And I LOVE LOWCAIXING. And he love me[not you] too =x

I can't seem to share it with anymore,
I got this feeling that sharing it would only caused more misery.
Because afterall it's hard to ask people to understand my dreams.
Well, how can i expect anyone to understand WHEN MY PARENTS DON'T EVEN GET IT.
Yes, I'm frustrated, i'm very, very, UPSET.
This makes me wanna CRY.
I really really like dance. And I seriously only want that career.
How can I convey my Love to others, how can i make others understand me?
I'm suffocating from all the studying, why must studying be my priority when what I really LOVE is to dance away my days? Sigh.
It makes me so sad. Sad. Sad. ):

Ohmygod, now i'm damn afraid low would be angry. ): I hope everything turns out alright. It's not like I did something really bad also. -.-

Laugh~ She insulted me in her blog.
In fact I already pissed to the max thanks to her.
Why must i hide all my feelings and hatred for her man. Damn it. And this little prank wasn't even count as anything for the things she did. And she says I'm unreasonable.
It's damn unfair for me to be labelled as "unreasonable" just because of this small prank, when she snatched low away last time. You are a bitch, i really really hate you. ):
I won't let you flirt him anymore. Tired of you lor. Get lost already lah.
Damn saddening how I can't flare up at her, ): and how she can't read these.
But it's alright lah, because now she's just trying hard to comfort herself by endlessly self-proclaiming that she won, i should let her be, afterall, I happy now because I have Low now, not her, she's just a idiot that thinks Cx is hers forever.
Goodlucktoyou, happy living in your fantasy land.
I won't do anything to her anymore. I can't let my temper get over me,
as my sucky temper will only help me lose low again.
It's time to really say Byebye to you man, you're just a 17 year old no-brain kid.
I am gonna stop being afraid of you.
I just hope Low won't get mad at me. ): Beg god please don't let this prank make Cx "BOOM" at me!!!!! ):

And OH i just realised it's always Gemini girls that backstabs me, snatch precious things away from me, it's always because of Gemini girls that i had to cry. I just dont get alonggg well with them awwww.


ANYWAY THANKS FOR KEEP HAVE TO PUT UP WITH MY SUCKY ATTITUDE. I will stop being such a princess already. I love my Low Cai Xing lehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhz. ):

Even after all the continuous reassurance,
I still cant stop thinking about it, what if she managed to somehow touched your heart again?
I wished the day where I stop being over-concerned over her would come.
Because everytime I think about it,
I can't help but feel disgusted and guilty at the me,
who still can't seem to habour trust.
It was all her fault to begin with.

Well, Well, Well.
I can't seem to share my love about dancing to anyone! LOL! Because all the idiots cannot understand my love for danceeeeee! Just talking about dance makes me feel all hyper and everything bad[Ex-Girlf] would be GONEEEEEE. I'm seriously serious about dance!!! Laugh Laugh.

I'm Happy.
Because I have you.
I love my Low~!