Korea singers all so hot.
They made me loved dance and music more and more and moreeee!

How i wished i was a trainee, and everyday training dance and vocal.
Wow what a wonderful life that will be.
Hate it that the school i'm going to isn't about dance and music. ):
And how i dread that tmr's test wont be on how to dance properly and how to control my pitch.
Sigh.
I wanna dance! and singggg well!

Hehex, I del-ed all the previous posts about, hmm CRAPS. :D.
Because I wanted to change everything to be about dance only, haha. In my life there's only Music and dance and KEYSSS! HEHESSS.

WOOOOOTS. TMR IS SATURDAY! I GET TO SPEND THE WHOLE AFTERNOON DANCING!
AND AFTER DANCE IS VOCAL LESSON WEET! I WONT GIVE UP HALFWAY AGAINNNN MAN.

AND LASTLY,
I LOVE KEY!
I LOVE KEY!
I LOVE KEY!
cheers~

The future I chosed is just a 1 way route.
[i]Just thinking about it make me get goosebumps[/i] as...
What if i failed? It's just a one way route.........
And success seem so small..
What a vague - looking future.
But [b]I won't give up[/b].

wow kpop, new bigbang female group in YG ent, new SHINee female group in SM ent. Fight only! AND SHINEE COMEBACK SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON.

Feeling super EXCLUDED from the world these few days man. Like back to those days during sec 3. But it's okay I think, I feel happy just by dancing. & SINGING! I love singing as much as dancing okayyy, just that I sings like a dork. Hahaha!
I hope it won't be a "something i can never get"
My dreams meant too much for me.

Add-ons.
Suddenly got the emo feel again. ):
I'm trying to do alot for my dreams.
Everyday practice okay. It's damn xinku-.-
And i'm trying to change to a more sensible girl..
Hard only, vulgars kept coming out uncontrollably[-.- spelling error].
I'm super scared, that this dream won't come true. Sigh.
I really don't want my dreams to be only daydreaming,
I want it to become reality.

What if i failed? High chance of failing. Fuck i'm so afraid now.
If i failed, where will i go?
Re-Audition? Will i get the chance to?
I'm so afraid of losing my direction.
I'm not pretty,
neither am i talented.
Sigh. If only i had talent.
I really wish i could pass it.
I really hate it here man.
I wished i could go to korea.
I dont want to be here anymore.
Sigh.

Last year I lost my focus.
I became unsure of my piorities and put my dreams behind.
I thought of the temporary happiness and forgot abt
My Love for My Dreams.
Now i found back all i wanted.
And i will never lose direction again!
Even though this road is hard to walk,
i will definitely work hard to reach my dreams!
Nowadays, all i could think of is also the place i eventually wanna be.
And i'm very afraid this dream will not come true.
Cause I gave my everything to it.
I wanna live this year in solitude,
away from all the loveydoveys here.
I rather work hard and get loved there.
I want to go to Korea and share the same stage as all the shiny stars over there.
Ultimate dream.
Even if no-one believes in it. As long as i believe in it, it's okay.

KIM KI BUN, KEY!
HE'S SO HANDSOME. MY ♥.
SUCH A CUTE LIBRA BOY.
I ♥ HIM LAH!

So "SHOWBIZ" is actually just a name to cover up a career "selling body for fame" ?
See all the artistes and singers shining on stage,
we'll always be attracted to their beauty, their singing, their dance.. etc.
The showbiz aka entertainment industry is like a fantasy to me.
BUT. I heard that it's actually not such a good place to be in.
The dark truth inside the industry is actually too corrupted and all.
What a sad sad reality for me to take.
The dream i always chased after is so dark and thorny.
But. Even if it's no different from hell.
I will still aim for it. It's still my fantasy.
As to be able to perform on stage, is just like reaching heaven.
No matter how corrupted it is. It's my only happiness.
Even if it's a teeny weeny chance of success,
as there's this saying ,
"Even if forced to stand on the edge of despair,
I'll grab tightly onto the chance thin as spider thread.
We humans have a strong spirit,
though whether to grab hold of it or not depends on the person itself.
To mop around and sign, what does that really do?
even the dead stand still and not more.
But I'm alive, I'm standing on my own strength."
Haha.

ANYWAY I FUCKING IN LOVE WITH KEYYYY [KIM KI BUN] OF SHINEE NOW.
AHHHHH HE'S SO FUCKING CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
I JUST WANNA FLY TO KOREA NOW TO HUG HIM MANNNNZ.
AND HE'S ONLY 18!!! SO DAM DAM DAM DAM CUTE.
MY NEW LOVE ONLY!!!!!!!

HMMM HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
NO SCHOOL TODAY AND IT DAM ROCKS! :D
MISS MY SEC 3 LIFE MANZ!!! HAHAHAHA.
EVERYDAY IS LIKE HOLIDAY ONLY! :DDDD
Ok enough craps. haha.
AND LIKE WHATTHECRAP, my birthday is @ the sat RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF Os!!!
WTF MANZ!

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ASH IS BACK!
Dance lesson today was damn F.U.N.
Went early and watched the 7p.m class have lesson.
BoA- Bad Drive. Just seeing them practice it makes me high!
I can't wait for mine to start!
And today SWEAT ALOT DURING CLASS.
BUT IT WAS SO LONG SINCE I DANCE SO MUCH!
Dance is my precious hobby!
I kept thinking of dance nowadays man.
BOA's MVs all really dam rocks and make me high!
My love for dancing just keep increasing each day.
And toot la! i just hope i would improve on dance faster! :D:D:D

Just very hardworking in finding a job!
Hope i can find one man!
So many things I wanna buy & dance courses!
Taking up 2 new dance courses. woots :D
Jenny.Is.Happy.With.Dance.
In the end maybe dance is just too hard to be say give up then give up maybe.

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